Today marks the first day I have access to my new apartment.
It’s a minor event, yet I’ve been struggling with growing anxiety about this day as it approached. The anxiety destroyed my eating choices, ramped up my over sensitivity, made work a nightmare, injected abruptness and a lack of empathy into my dealings with others, and stolen so many nights of sleep from me via bad dreams and restlessness. It’s been three or four increasingly miserable weeks.
In these sorts of times, I would normally soothe myself with sewing. Clear my social calendar, grab fabric and a pattern, and lock myself into sewing mode until my mind is clear again. But this time, most of my fabric is in storage and I am trying to keep my sewing area neat. So, no pulling out a million patterns and daydreaming over them. Also, sewing reminded me that I don’t know if I’ll have space for my studio in my new place. Being reminded of the possibility of a major downgrade in my sewing set up, really sucked the life out of my sewjo!
There are some things to look forward to in the new place, though. I look forward to living a more nocturnal lifestyle, which suits me better than the faux-early bird life I’ve been living for the past several years. And if I do have sewing space, this means more sewing when my creative juices are at their juiciest! I’m looking forward to trying out crock pot cooking, new spots for outdoor photo shoots, and being a five minute walk from both my fabric stash in storage AND my local fabric store.
Let me repeat: I’ll be five walking minutes from the local fabric store!!!
Also, frankly, change is a part of life that I do my darnedest to avoid. It’s a terrible habit that we all have to some extent, but I’m definitely a hang-on-tooth-and-nail-to-the-old-way sort of gal, haha. It’s great to have lived a stable life but maaaaaan can it be stagnant! So a move is a great way to infuse some freshness into my world.
How do you handle change? Are you a go with the flow, jump on opportunity type, or a more cautious and slower paced type?