Well, That Was Fast

It doesn’t feel any better being on the other side of that statement.

Some months ago, I had to make the decision to fire a new hire who’d only been with my company for one week, and the first line of her email reply was ‘Well, that was fast.’ And it was–but I felt that I’d trained her well and practically begged her to tell me whether she felt comfortable in the role yet. But she didn’t. Presented with poor performance and an unwillingness to open up about it, I was forced to take a hard stance.

Today, unfortunately, I’m on the other side — two weeks after starting a new job, I’ve been canned. It feels terrible, not the least because of how rarely I’ve ever been fired (this is my second time since starting to work at the age of fifteen). But this one has a special sting, as it was a real job; not a minimum wage, barely above the table gig like the other time. I admit I feel really frustrated and defeated this time around. I feel like I’ve been trying to do the ‘right’ (read: conventional) thing since quitting school fourteen years ago, to make up for dropping out halfway through college. But I feel no further along the straight and narrow now than I was then, and now I’m also tired.

I don’t know what is in store for me. I am grateful and lucky to have a solid roof over my head and my final/only paycheck in my pocket, but I’ve spent more weeks not working than working so far this year and I don’t like it. I don’t know what this means for my sewing; obviously, I’m going to keep sewing and blogging, but I don’t know if it will be less or more. Pretty much I’m writing this because I said I’d be more open about my personal life, and if I’m paying for hosting you can bet your bippy I’m going to take liberties with what I write. *smile*

Cross your fingers for me…

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11 Comments

  1. I agree, here’s hoping a better opportunity is on its way for you. Rejections are an unfortunate part of life, and we all experience them in one way or another. It sucks, and it takes a while to recover. Stay strong and think positive. You have a wonderful community of readers and friends supporting you!

  2. That’s just plain awful. When it happened to me I cried all the way home. I had no idea why they’d done it and it knocked me right down. That was the bad part. The good part was that two weeks later I landed a great job with even better pay and I loved it. Turned out the problem was them not me. Hold on to that thought.

    1. Thanks so much for this, India. I do hope something positive comes out of this, and I’m trying to work through my emotions without letting them get me down. Really glad to hear your story had a happy ending. :)

  3. Well that certainly sucks.

    I am so sorry and can only assume something wonderful is coming your way to replace this job. Sending positive thoughts your way. ♥

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